"He's not good for my team. I don't want him to go to jail, I think, but I don't trust him free, either." He sighed again and closed his eyes. "He can't be trusted on his own, and I can't watch him all the time. He sucks me in and I can't get away. He means too much to me." Yes, he was admitting that maybe he still felt something there. "I hate it. It just means that I can't disconnect like I can with other people... really inconvenient in times like this."

He laughed a little and opened his eyes to look at the Doctor, a fond look on his face. "I don't know how to be moderate like you. I'm either too harsh or too kind... How do you do it?"